19th April 2011 =(

今天是星期二
我依然还是没有去做工
因为我生病了
我好像你可以在我的身边照顾我陪伴我
可是我知道你没可能会陪在我的身边
我从不奢求什么
我只想你可以回到我的身边
我真的很生气我自己那天为何说分手
我是真的很想和你重头来过
我不想再失去你
我想拥有你一辈子
我不知道我可以吗
要我忘记你我做不到
要我放下你我做不到
要你在我的心里消失是没有可能
我真的希望我们可以重来
当那天没事发生过
我的幸福是要我自己去争取
我现在争取到了
可是就因为我一时之气而消失了
我一直在责怪我自己
我答应你的事我一定会做得到
我不会骗你
我一定可以做到
请你给我们大家一次机会
好吗
不要轻易放弃我们的爱情

19th April 2011

现在是星期二的凌晨

我从下午到现在都在朋友作供的店那里上网

我就快发疯了哦

每天都在这里陪她做工

哈哈

不过也是蛮好的

因为我可以免费上网和看戏

今天我没有去做工

因为我的背后那里很痛

我也不知道原因

好烦恼哦

这两天我还没有习惯我的牙齿被拔了

哈哈

不过我会慢慢去习惯不见了一颗牙齿

宝贝

我好想对你说“你知道我在等你吗”

我会给你时间去考虑

我不会逼你逼得太紧

因为我知道你不喜欢的

我很了解你的人

所以也不逼你现在做决定

我真的很希望我们可以重来

不要去计较之前的事

我们互相配合互相迁就彼此

感情会比之前更好的

这几天我都在朋友那里上网和看戏

不敢一个人在家

因为我知道我一个人在家的话

我就会一直乱想东西

所以才选择去朋友那里

I miss You so much  ♥

My heart to you is given:
Oh, do give yours to me;
We’ll lock them up together,
And throw away the key.

16th April 2011

今天是星期六
我今天去拔牙和补牙
总共花了我一百五十块
哇~~~~~很贵啊
医生说我的牙齿不美
还有些牙齿补
我突然觉得我很可怜啊
又补牙又拔牙
天呀
为什么你要在我情绪低落的时候给我这份礼物
Haiz >.<
开什么天大的玩笑哦
我还是很想你和爱你
我真的不想就这么轻易放弃我们的感情
不过你没有给我答复
我一直都在等着你的答复
等着你的答案
我想我们可以重头来过
之前的事就当没事发生
到现在我信息你,你也不要回复我
我就一直地等一直地等
等到你有一天回头
我承认当时是我一时之气和你说分手
可是到最后我都生气自己为何这样说
那时候我真的很白痴很生气自己
如果时间可以重来
我希望我没有和你说分手
我们还是好好的
如果时间可以重来
我希望我会比现在更爱你更了解你
可是我知道时间是没有可能可以重来
只是看我们自己可不可以重来
我好想对你说:对不起,宝贝
I Love You ♥

15th April 2011 ♥

Today is Friday
Is the 2nd day that I break up with my dear
I break up with him on 13th April 2011
We break up is cause a small matter
But I don't know why I feel regret when I say break up with him
And when I say break up with him that time
I cry until non-stop
My eye also "bengkak"
That day before I say break up with him
I run away from his home and he was worry about me
Because he sms me and call me that can't find me
But I got call him back after I know he sms me and call me few times
Until today I also can't let him go and wanna together back with him 
Moreover I know don't have this chance to let us together back 
Today morning he sms to me and say something that make me feel down and down
That time I together with my friends at McDonald
I feel suprised when I receive his message
Because I don't know he will sms to me again
I feel gonna cry after saw the message but I can't cry
Reason is I promise my friends that I can't cry again
Hope everythings on him will going smoothly and he will get his happiness
Hope he will find a girlfriend who will better than me
Dear I love you and miss you ♥
This is a last chance that I say I love you and miss you through my blog
Our memory I will keep it in my heart and my mind

our couple ring from Lazo Diamond♥

My dear and me♥

♥My dear take photo that first time smile =) 

2nd Mar 2011

Today I having bad mood and very angry

I really pissed off from my family

You all are not my family

Because you all never care my feeling

Now I want to withdraw also can't

What's wrong about that

I got my reason and I can do decision by myself

I not a child

I am adult already

No everything also need to ask you all how to do or what can I do

I know what is important to me and what are no important to me

Now I want withdraw is because the result is too bad

I also can't accept it and I don't hope to get bad result again

So now I want to working and earn money first

I don't want half study and half working

That is sympathise for me

You all never know that and you all never know me

This is call family??

I really hate you all always like that

I dislike the thing you all do

Bull shit >.<

Especially you...

Not everything I also want to follow your meaning to do

You are my family

I just respect you but please don't over it

Everyone have the limits of tolerance

Don't everytime also like that to force me or scold me

Ish %@&

♥ 24th Feb 2011 ♥

Today is Thursday

I didn't go for lecturer class

Because my mood is still down and sad

Yesterday I get my result

And I feel so surprised about that

My result got two subject fail and I need to resit

The main reason make me feel sad and down is Fundamentals of Accounting

I don't know why I will fail this subject

I didn't do anything wrong when final examination

I really blur that why I will fail this subject

Haiz>.<

Yesterday I cry when I was at home

Until today my mood is still same

I really speechless for that

Next week I gonna face two tests and one two assignments

This semester is a short semester

So everything also gonna be rush and rush

Lecturer also need to rush to teach all the note

This semester I must be hardworking to study and get good result

I don't want fail any subject again

Recently I really get in trouble of financial problem

I don't what can I do

I still thinking whether I stop study or continue to study

My heart is so confuse to make decision

What can I do and have any suggestion to solve it

Haiz><

More three days is me and dear one month anniversary 

Hope our love will be more stable than now 

♥ Love You ♥

10th Feb 2011

Today is Thursday
Today also is Chinese New Year@初八
Tonight is Hokkien need "拜天空"
This is the law of Hokkien
Today I also stay at home to worship
Today also is my dear come back from Hatyai
I miss him so much
This year Chinese New Year is getting bored
Because nothing to do and no place to go
But I got my dear accompany me to pass my Chinese New Year
Haha =)
Lucky I got my dear by my side
Dear~I Love You so much
My sick until now also haven recover yet
It get more serious than before
Very bad and weird
I already go see second times of doctor
Haiz >.<
When just will recover back 
I getting suffer since I sick
Flu...Cough...Sore throat and fever all is come visit me in the same time ='(